Today has just been one of those days where I can’t seem to summon the motivation or energy to do anything.
I am SO tired of this bed. SO tired of this room. SO tired of this house. I need to get out and have an adventure. SO badly. I was not made for this life.
I WANT to cry. I WANT to yell. I WANT to throw things. I WANT to know why. I WANT the pain to stop. I WANT to shower. I WANT to go kayaking. I WANT to go swimming. I WANT to go fishing. I WANT to do SOMETHING. I WANT to do ANYTHING frankly.
I NEED people. I NEED stimulation. I NEED to be productive. I NEED to be useful. I NEED to be out in nature. I NEED someone who understands. I NEED support. I NEED someone to hold me and tell me everything will be okay.
I CAN keep the faith. I CAN reach out to others. I CAN give my body what it needs. I CAN keep trying. I CAN do what the doctors tell me.
I CAN try again tomorrow.